Nederlandse versie lees je hier.
For years I told myself that I couldn't draw portraits. Didn't even try it, just said 'Oh no, that's not my thing'. But the truth was I really wanted to learn. No wait, I didn't want to learn, I wanted to be able to draw the perfect portrait without any practicing or working for it. Thát was what I wanted.
In 2013 inspiration gave me an idea of a girl who interacts with birds and other animals. But a girl has a face . . . and to hide the fact that I couldn't draw a face, I placed hair in front of her mouth and nose. When my sketches turned into mixed media the face of the girl needed some improvement. I decided to sign up for portrait painting lessons.
The first lesson felt like the first day at a new school. I felt so insecure and was not kind to myself át áll. After half an hour into the first lessons I did the worst thing ever and compared myself with others who've been painting portraits for years. I thought mine looked like crap, I had no fun at all. The next mondaymorning I found myself thinking 'Hmmm, I'm not feeling very well. Let's stay home'.
It took me many weeks to mute those thoughts and to embrace the learning process. To discover how to handle my inner worst critic was an eyeopener. If I was the one who was blocking my own progress, I was also the one that could unblock it. Now I'm looking forward to my Monday Painting Day. I'm having fun now, discovering new things and learning much more then I ever thought.
So if there is something that you really want to do, but you keep telling yourself you can't.
Please find the courage to get out there and try it. Maybe you'll discover that what you thought you wanted is not for you. But at least you've stepped out of your comfort zone and tried.
I highly recommend it :-)
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